Almost Untitled

The worst realization hit me just right now.

A friend came home from somewhere countries away. Excitedly, I set up all the possible get togethers, immediate friend’s gimmicks, out of town gatherings where in the long list does not include my one-on-one chitchats with her, yet. The idea is that you two should be having some kind of bonding that only you two could understand - the vanity clicks, wistfulness, food trips and jaw-dropping laughs. I have reached out so much that it turned out me being over reacting. Maybe people can blame me for being so pushy and overly excited to the fact that your friend, after eight months of being absent is finally here. Take note that my being melodramatic led me to coordinate with other and almost all friends so that she won’t be having a hard time reaching out to them. My only wish is that we can meet up and fill up the missing blanks.

But, I never felt being a priority. Sigh. I may sound selfish (actually I am selfish) but it’s true that I want sana something in return and that is to talk to her and spend time with our friendship. Sigh. Maybe I miss her a lot. But maybe, I should stop pushing so much. Maybe its time to make her move naman and to know that what I’m doing is worth all efforts. I am saddened lang that I never felt an inch of force from her.

Yes! I am nagtatampo but what can say? If you were in my shoes, you’ll terribly terribly feel the same.

“Never prioritize a person who only holds you as a choice”

fi_shoi @2007 <’)+++<